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New Poems I Wrote On 9-2-07 by Car0l, literature

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New Poems I Wrote On 9-2-07

*Lust* Fallen in this black hole of lust your will to fight turned to dust struggling to evade the end but the more you struggle the deeper you fall in like quick sand if you fail to avoid this sin the guilt of pressure wins but you never learned from your lesson so you are tried all over again will you make the same mistake twice! or will your body freeze as ice don't return to this situation deny any and all invitions lust no more avoid temptation this is your final reason *Untitled* The softness of a dream voice whispers words that could send goose bumps to arise he lies upon fallen leaves colored orange from the fall I

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new Poems...

*I'm Sorry I'm Not Perfect* I'm sorry I'm not perfect that I'm not the girl of your dreams i have so many flaws or thats how you make it seem shes an angel one who can never fall the perfect one who seems to have it all she had everything and more but she still took you away you said you were in love so what else could i say she was beautiful and perfect in every single way she made you happy and made you smile everyday she had the perfect shape it's official she had it all and you turned around as my tears began to fall *Untitled* If I could have just one wish, I would wish to wake up everyday to the sound of your bre

New Poems by Car0l, literature

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New Poems

*I Left You This Morning* I left you like the dawn leaves the sky in the morning Knowing that a bright and warm ray of Sunshine will touch your face and kiss your eyes for me introduce you to a brand new day, my love *Lying Awake* When the sun is setting and the moon lights the sky, While the stars make an appearance and the house grows still, I wonder about what you do to me and how I really feel. I lie in bed for hours, just trying to doze off, It's you who keeps me awake, you who occupies every thought, you that fills my soul, you, keeping me a live inside. Staring at my ceiling, I lose myself in your eyes, fascinating

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*UNTITLED* Moving, stirring The thoughts in my mind Creating A tornado from behind Confusion Ready to drag me away from reality Decision I really need to make immediately It was always been the hard way Thinking vividly what path to take Should I go or should I stay? Because I don't wanna make a mistake Swirling Different emotions inside of me Producing, making A vast whirlpool of misery Confusion Starting to make an outrage in my heart Decision I really need to start I like you, I really do But I'm also hurting Because I don't know who am I to you Your actions are so confusing *UNTITLED* When ever i see him i get

Untitled Poems by Car0l, literature

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Untitled Poems

*Untitled* Erase this pain Erase his face Erase this love my heart intakes. Please I scream I can't let go. His face after 2 years is all I know. I want to let go yet my heart yearns. *Untitled* A certain song can make me cry, A time on the clock can make me cry. These little things remind me of you, And what we often used to do. *Untitled* I know you'll never care, but without you its not fair. I love you and care about you everyday. But still there's not point of loveing you anyway. I'm telling you this and I'm telling you now, I'm trying not to love you but I don't know how. *Untitled* So many tears that i hav

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It Comes Down To This by Car0l, literature

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It Comes Down To This

IT COMES DOWN TO THIS (i still love you baby) What can I say I've lost you again you made your decision and put "us" to an end What I didn"t expect had come so fast I guess we were different cause I thought it would last What made me happy was to see you smile and now that you're gone it will take me a while Though you're not mine I still strive to see your face God it's hard to believe it seems so out of place I thought that I knew you I thought you were right But you changed my opinion in one single night To say I'm not sad well it's all a big lie 'cuz when you see me happy I'm really wanting to c

First Time I Met You by Car0l, literature

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First Time I Met You

First Time I Met You First time I met you I knew that I wanted you I got you and yes we fuss and fight but that never changed my love for you and we grew so much in love it was so hard to keep it inside but the day you wanted to end it by saying you dont want me no more after a year and five months I didnt understand it and now a year and five months still dont understand.

The Art Of Letting Go by Car0l, literature

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The Art Of Letting Go

It's over. He's gone. Why do we have to part while the love is still there? Why do we have to suffer? Why do we have to cry when somebody bids goodbye? Why do beginnings have an end? Why do we have to meet only to lose in the end? There are questions left unanswered, words left unsaid, letters left unread, poems left undone, songs left unsung, love left unexpressed, promises left unfulfilled. In a relationship, one of the hardest things to do is saying goodbye and letting go. It is as hard as breaking a crystal because you'll never know when you will be able to pick up the pieces again. More often than not

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Untitled by Car0l, literature

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Untitled

So many tears that i have cried -- they got me nowhere fast so many cuts upon my wrist -- you didn't get a scratch these self-inflicted horrors they make what once had been a dream into a nightmare starring me you'll never care i hurt myself (i can't redeal the cards i'm dealt) and as i'm trying to move on this pain makes me fall farther down this razor does not help a bit just makes me weak-- i must be fit i merely have to realize that you have stepped out of my life that what was once cannot return there are things that i have to learn like, pain will not help me release the angst that dwells inside of me that hating me b

Untitled 2 by Car0l, literature

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Untitled 2

I've tried so hard, I don't know what else to do, And it's quite obvious, You don't want me to love you. But what more do you want, I'm only just a girl, And the way you make me feel, Causes my head to whirl. in case you haven't noticed, I've tried to move on, Out with lots of guys, From dusk till dawn. Nothing seems to work, You've got me stuck, You moved on so easily, Yeah, just my luck. The things you said, You swore they were real, But to my disadvantage, you lied of how you feel. This is what you promised, And swore it was true, "forever and ever" you said, but was it real to you? I meant every word I said, I did

Untitled 3 by Car0l, literature

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Untitled 3

Tears i shed on my pillow as i lay awake at night reminiscing what i could of done to make it all right i gaze out of my window and upon a shooting star i wish that my true loves OK ,where ever you are my mind is buzzing and clouded with thoughts remembering all the joy and love you brought i cannot sleep and our love i cannot erase wish i could go back in time and re live those special days my heart is empty,that fire has burnt out you kept that spark alive,thats what our love was about i hear our song on the radio and mutter each word under my breathe my hearts aching inside knowing that you have left my emotions have gone all c

Untitled 4 by Car0l, literature

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Untitled 4

All i can do is sit alone in my room thinking of you how could this be you are not here with me when i gave you the best of me i face each day without a smile and life seems so unfair i feel like i want to die cause you didn't give me a last good-bye I've waited weeks for your call I've waited here by the phone but when the silence grew long i knew something was wrong right then i knew it how could you do it tear my heart in two there is no more blue in my sky only cloudy mornings and these memories in the corners of my mind i start looking at us at a picture of us in a frame and i start to cry cause i cant see us apart oh

Untitled 5 by Car0l, literature

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Untitled 5

I believed you i stuck up for you when people shut you down i was the one who turned their views around ill never forget when we first met it was amazing we clicked straight away but now thats all gone astray i stayed up to talk to you i went days without sleeping some how i felt close to you you made promises you knew you couldn't keep i believed every word you said now i hang my head and weep i couldn't sleep at night all i thought about was holding you tight why couldn't you love me enough now iv given up the fight the thing that hurts the most is that its like you don't even care all you can say is sorry i asked

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Falling Apart by Car0l, literature

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Falling Apart

For some reason everything is going wrong, I can't seem to catch a break, Everyone says this will make me stronger, But I'm just falling apart, No one is here to help me put the pieces back together, I've come to understand the worlds so cold, No one seems to understand me, No one seems to wanna try, I sit here with tears running down my face, Wondering what I did so wrong.

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Never Again

You promised you wouldn't hurt me. You said you would always care. And I believed you for no better reason, Then the fact that you were there. You lied to me but that okay, I desevred it, I guess, Anyway But I just want to let you know. This is it, no further can I go. The pain you cause me, Everytime we get close. It is too much for me to handle. It is too much of a dose. So please understand The reason I can no longer hold your hand Or say I love you or that I forgive you Because I don't and no longer can.

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Current Residence: Cleveland/Kent, Ohio
Favourite genre of music: Local Music
Personal Quote: Love Heals Scars Love Left

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LOTR, Shaun Of The Dead, & Bone Daddy

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Amplexus, Drop To Zero, Bonk, The Ohio Sky, Asleep, American Rockstar, Bleeding A Memory

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Henry Rollins, Stephen King

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Car0l

Feb 9, 2008

2-8-08

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I hope you make me real again cause jesus christ I need to breathe again.

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Car0l

Dec 16, 2007

My heart on my sleeves...

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Ive been thinking a lot lately. My life hasnt been that great. But the people in my life make it worth living. Ive been through a lot. And I wouldnt be here if it wasnt for certain people (you know who you are). I want to thank everyone for being there for me when I needed you the most. You are all truely amazing. I have been on a emotional rollercoaster lately. I want someone so bad it hurts with every breath I take. Its killing me to be just a friend. But Id rather be just friends than not have him in my life at all. Ive never cared so much about someone before. I dont want to lose what we had. Im scared to death. I dont want to get hurt.

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Car0l

Sep 8, 2007

Update (9-8-07)

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So yeah, feelings for that friend... Im choosing to ignore them. Right now is a bad time. Matter of fact its NEVER a good time. For many reasons. I hate it. But its what has to be done. I dont think he will ever know. Unless by chance he reads my blogs on myspace and put pieces together (which I highly doubt he will). This really sucks. I just wanna meet someone new. A new guy to keep my mind off the ones I already know and have feelings for. One of my guy "friends" used me. I cant believe I let it happen. I fell for him and got hurt. That always seems to happen to me. Im crushed. But yet my heart still finds ways to be jealous of the one he